Love's Jail

what is it about being hurt by love that makes you push it away? after the first inkling of feeling you have no more to say? even when you try to hide-do your best to keep it all inside....just when you think that love has your back-the moment you open up is the the very moment it starts to crack....out pour emotions you long to keep in.....fighting a battle you know you won't win.....guarding your heart like too tight security....scared of what could be between you and me...why does love cripple and make you feel scared? longing for the capability to disappear in thin air......will this wall be broken? will it ever be knocked down? or does love have my heart on permanent lockdown?