Friends and Money

they say you should never mix friends with money-and now i understand why....
when it's time to pay up you start to make excuses and lie....
i will admit you are a friend that's good...
but dammit why won't you keep your word?
the bills pile high while i bust my ass to keep caught up...
and you sit around like you just don't give a fuck.....
don't wanna leave you down with nowhere to go...
but i can't take this shit and you really need to know....
if you're for real then it's time to show and prove....
cause you know actions speak louder than words.....

I Laid In the Bed and Thought About You- a poem for lost love

i lay in the bed and thought about you today. I thought of our conversations bout this n that. whether that rapper was hot or whack. which people need to get off crack that's all up in the spotlight but....that's another conversation. trippin off the people in your past that took paths they never knew where they would lead. political figures promising hope, delivering disappoinment daily with no thought to what the REAL meaning of hypocrisy is. dam i miss talking bout this kinda stuff with you. how even though las vegas is about a casino it's really just another vegas csi. how aaron mcgruder is a damn funny black man with a fresh and true sense of humor. dam those were the good old days. chillin in the bed just knckin back while we politic and i chief and we speak and it's just peace. dam i laid in the bed today and thought about us. that old combination of we that has now split to become just me. but i miss that old we. that spark. that something that can't be created or duplicated-that original something that was just we. even if we can't get it back-i laid in the bed and thought about you today.

orig written: 3.13.06

Special Secret

so, what is it about you that has me trippin? i don't know if it's the swagger in your walk, the cokiness of your talk or just the way we kick it when we're together. i like the way you keep it real. i like the way you make me feel. no other man has the power to make me want to please him. i can't describe the pleasure it brings me when you release in me. no other man has tasted so good or been able to take me for so long. what is it about you? why do you have the power to make me blush? make me lose my cool. it's hard to maintain around you. you throw me off my game so bad. how can i stay on point? as much as i want to be with you i'm so scared to make the approach. it's like sitting on the bench waiting for the coach. wanting to ravish your body with kisses but knowing it's just a dream. never to become reality. a special secret just for me. but dam i can see us intertwined in another space and time. but you can never be mine and so it shall be. a special secret just for me.

orig written: 3.21.06

Met You At the Wash

not really looking for love but i turned around and there you were. a breath of fresh air. so comforting. so refreshing so warm and yet so cool. dam where have you been hiding? can't say what will happen but i enjoy our time. enjoy the way it feels to sit and just talk. don't be scared to tell me what didn't work. what didn't she do right? let me fill that void in your life. don't want to get too close. don't know what could be. dont' want to destroy or mess up what could be. i love the way your mind works. how your mission is only to please. to know that all it takes is a sip from this fountain and my nectar flows free. never have i felt so much with someone so tender. days to come the lovemaking from that night will be something to remember. the places your mouth touched i will never forget. like being on a ride screaming don't stop yet. not ashamed to admit that you might have me sprung. but credit must be given and i dont' mind giving you props. don't mind letting you know i like what you do and on top of all of that-you're so damned good at it too. so, when are you coming back?

orig written date: 3.13.06